Sometimes we have no clue exactly what God’s will for us is.
I have struggled with this recently. When I moved to Arizona, I set this standard for myself of making sure that I was in a better place mentally, physically, and financially when I moved. For the longest time I didn’t know if I could make that happen without compromising one or the other. I was offered a job with better pay but the same awful hours as my previous job. Immediately I wanted to decline, but I knew I had to help support my family. And while it wasn’t the ideal schedule it was better pay and a better position in this industry. But I couldn’t see that. All I could see was the schedule I knew I didn’t want.
Therefore, since the job had a late start date, I felt like I had plenty of time to find something I knew I’d love. I just knew God gave me that time to find my perfect job. I put in application after application. Had interviews that I thought went well, but never went any further. Finally, the time came for me to start and I did everything in my power to avoid this job. I couldn’t understand for the life of me why God would give me this time but not give me the job I wanted (or thought I wanted).
So, I started this job and I do like it. I still hate the hours but the job itself is great (so far). The more I work the more I see there are new opportunities at my new station than there were at my previous station. That’s when I started to see why God gave me what he did. I thought I was facing failure, but really, I was learning to accept God’s will. This is part of the learning curve of life, but sometimes God has other plans for us. I have literally prayed for guidance and a path in which both God wants, and I want. And time after time he showed me, but I couldn’t see because I was blinded by my own selfish wants. But now I know that there was a reason behind why I have this job.
I’m not sure how soon things will change in my favor, but right now they are working in the Lord’s favor and that means only blessings are to come. So, when you feel like you’re facing failure, ask yourself if you’re really being prepped to be able to accept God’s will. I’m not saying not to go after what you want, I’m just saying sometimes we have to step back and understand that we’re going to get what we want because God put it on our hearts, so we know it’s real, it’s just that he wants us to learn to be patient and go through trials before we can reach success.
Failure is inevitable. But is it really failure if God already told you, you won? Failure is not going after what you want or what God wants for you. Failure is not taking that risk and stepping out on the faith of God. Out of all of this I see that I have a calling and now I have something big coming. I don’t know exactly when it will happen but I’m working on it and I can only promise you that it’s going to be great. Right now, I’m just focusing on the task at hand. I have a lot of learning and growing to do before I can fully accept what God has promised me.
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.” Psalm 32:8